We May Contribute a Verse

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The other day I was at a restaurant opening with my friend Lane of Missalaneyus and we were chatting about blogging. I was just about to come back from my self-imposed hiatus, and I mentioned how I’d had this silly, little blog for 10 years. It’s been a long time, guys. A really long time. The blog has gone through so many changes, redesigns and directions in those 10 years, evolving as all things must. But especially this past year, I have found blogging to be a difficult, tedious task. There has been so much going on in my life personally this past year and a half, and while in the past, blogging about difficulties in my life was therapeutic, it just wasn’t an option this time. That made blogging really, really hard, because at the heart of it all, this blog is for sharing my life. I’d post here about a cute outfit or photoshoot, and I felt like a fraud, because I was putting on a happy face while my universe was spinning out of control.

A very positive change that has occurred in the past year is I am no longer very good at “putting on a happy face.” This was my go-to mode for dealing with stress or any other negative emotion in the past. I’d pretend it was all okay and stuff all the yucky stuff deep down inside. While I do believe that positive thinking and gratitude can change lives, pretending like is all rainbows and unicorns when it simply ISN’T just doesn’t work for me anymore. Around the time I realized this phenomenon, blogging became impossible. I’d sit in front of my desktop, willing myself to type out something (ANYTHING!), but nothing would come out. Blogging became a chore, something I hated to even think about, let alone a way to spend my free time. I became anxious and irritable whenever I felt I “needed” to write something. Blogging was once a hobby that I loved…now it was just another item on my endless to-do list. I needed a change.

I spent the last month of the summer really thinking about my life. What do I need on a daily basis to feel generally happy, fulfilled and good about my existence? I asked myself this question often, and spent a lot of time testing out new and old activities, trying to find a healthy balance. I am still not sure of all the answers, but I realized a few things:

- I need time to myself on a daily basis to pray or meditate (or both, if possible!)
- I need a good night’s sleep, which for me means 7 to 8 hours
- I need to get up at least an hour before my kids in the morning to get my day started
- I need to spend time reading a book every day
- I need to do something for fun with my kids
- I need to be grateful and write down what I’m thankful for
- I need to show kindness and love to my husband
- I need to move my body
- I need to reach out to supportive people in my life
- I need to do something kind for someone else

Notice a few items missing? Me too! I always assumed watching TV or movies would be at the top of my list, since I enjoy those things so much, but I found on the days I skipped that activity, I didn’t feel any worse for it. Also, blogging? Not on the list. Taking photos? Not on the list. Now, I’m not sure if it will stay this way, but for now, those activities aren’t making me happy, just stressing me out. I need to fall in love with them again, before they are a daily necessity.

This is a first step. When I started this blog, it was just to write. To write because my life and my experience on this earth are of value. To write because maybe something that I have gone thru may help someone else in the same position. To write so my kids can read this one day and know me as a person, instead of just their mom. To write because writing is how I understand the world around me. Horrible things are happening in our world, and while I may not be able to write about all of them, I have my own life experiences, and writing them down and sharing them is a service. All of our voices are worthy. We all have stories to tell. I am lucky to have this space and these words. I am going to try and not take that for granted.

We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race, and the human race is filled with passion. Medicine, law, business, engineering…these are noble pursuits, necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love…these are what we stay alive for! To quote from Whitman,

‘Oh me! Oh life! of the questions of these recurring,
Of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill’d with the foolish,
The question, O me! so sad, recurring—What good amid these, O me, O life?

Answer.

That you are here—that life exists and identity.
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.’”

- Robin Williams, Dead Poets Society

2014 Fall Mini Shoots!

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UPDATE: I can’t thank you all enough for your interest in the Mini Shoots! The October 4th date is currently full, but I am still taking a few more sessions for September 27th. Hooray for photos!

I’m so excited to be able to offer Mini Shoot Photo Sessions again this year! Mini Shoots are a wonderful and economical way for families to capture memories and get some fantastic images to share over the holiday season. I only offer minis once a year, and it’s a pretty good deal, with families saving up to $250 off the cost of a full photo shoot.

Here’s the nitty gritty:

- I’m offering two dates this fall for Mini Shoots, September 27th and October 4th
- The shoots will take place in mid-afternoon and early evening, specific times will be made available after you schedule the date for your shoot (between 4 and 7 p.m.)
- I am currently scouting new locations for the Mini Shoots, so if you’ve participated in past Mini Shoots, these images will have new scenery to work with
- Mini Shoot sessions last 15 to 20 minutes, and prices range based on number of people being photographed
- You will receive 10 to 15 images digitally (Mini Shoots do not include photo printing) to use at your leisure

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If you’re interested in participating, please click HERE to sign up! Once I have the sessions full, I will contact you with available time slots. If you have a specific time in mind, please note that in the “Special Requests” section of the form and I will do my best to accommodate you.

Feel free to email me at megan@crazybananas.com with any questions!

Back to School : Back to Blog

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The first day of third grade. And she wouldn’t let me walk her in to the school. She’s “too old” for that. Le sigh.

Well, we made it.

Today was Lucy’s first day back to school. Summer is officially (unofficially?) over at the Crazybananas house. And let me tell you, it was a damn fine summer. I’m almost not ready for it to end, although the beginning of school means fall…and have I mentioned how much I love fall? While I’ve loved our freewheeling summer schedule, it does feel pretty nice to have a little more structure and the ability to complete a task or two, or actually get some work done during the day. From a former full time working mama to you all you work at home parents out there, “I salute you!” It’s not an easy gig, but with the school year comes a little more time to focus, and I’m grateful.

I have spent the last few weeks really thinking about this blog and what I want it to be. Did you know this crazy little online journal is 10 years old?! Ten. Years. Holy crap. That is a long time to be spilling your guts to the Internet. The last year has been challenging, and I want to make sure I find ways to enjoy blogging again. With that realization came plans for a few changes around here, which I’m super pumped to share with you. Thanks for being here and sticking with me through all these wonderfully weird years. You guys are the peanut butter to my jelly!

A Little Summer Break

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We just returned home from a little holiday with Trent’s family in Idaho. I haven’t spent much time in that part of the country, but the few times I have, I’ve found it to be a magical place. Maybe it’s because I live in a humid, flat, suburban sprawl, but looking around at mountains, rivers and forests is so peaceful. We drove through Yellowstone and spent some time in Big Sky, Montana as well. On our way to the airport I realized for the first time in ages, I forgot my big DSLR camera at home! At first I was disappointed, but then I realized how nice it would be to travel lightly for once. Are my images as crisp or technically good as I’d like? Nope. But they are wonderful just the same. And I was able to experience all these moments as they happened, instead of through a viewfinder. Good stuff.

Happy 4th of July from Big Sky, Montana! #4thofjuly #family #fun #montana #bigsky #love #mountains #beauty

Lucy's first hot springs...she approves! #summer #vacation #idaho #heisehotsprings #fun #happy #hotsprings

His first time climbing! So proud of this little man! #rockclimbing #bigsky #montana

Bear World comes complete with a kiddie carnival. Score number 2! #whee #bearworld #idaho #carnival

This hedgehog is giving me the stink eye... #hedgehog #zoo #idaho #idahofalls

Bear World!!!! #score #christmascard2014 #growl #bearfamily #idaho

Bye bye, #idaho! #cousins #love #buddies #tateandbrooklyn #cute #family

This will be my last post for a while, as I’m taking my annual Digital Sabbatical for the rest of the summer. Summer is so fun for our little family, and I want to make sure I spend as much time as possible really living it. Sort of like leaving the DSLR camera at home, except this time it’s on purpose! This blog turned 10 years old this year, which is both parts amazing and unbelievable! But in order to keep it going, I need some time to refuel and make sure I’m taking in all that real life has to offer. There is a blogger I love and admire who hasn’t posted in months, and when a reader asked her about it, she said while she misses her blog, she finds she has a much more fulfilling real life when she’s not worrying about blogging all the time. I realize this blog is a part of me, and I don’t think I’ll ever stop posting completely, but a little summer break is definitely needed! Happy summer-ing, everyone!

(P.S. I’ll still be updating the Crazybananas Facebook and Twitter here and there, so follow on those if you’d like to keep up with our summer happenings. And of course, I’m sure I’ll still be Instagramming up a storm, so follow me over there for some images of our fun.)

Summer Beauty Staples

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Summer in Kansas is hot. Like, really hot. Hot and humid and sticky and awesome, but definitely not a great time to be wearing a ton of makeup. Anything heavy or too dramatic, and you’ll find it sweating down your face in moments, so I tend to go for a super simple beauty routine in the summer. It’s quick, easy and tends to look good, even when it feels like a sauna outside.

Laura Mercier Tinted Moisturizer
– I love this product and it’s one of the few items where I will spend a bit more money. I’m a huge fan of drugstore brands, but this is an item I don’t mind investing in. It has SPF 20, which, in my experience, protects all day. It is light enough not to get cakey, but has enough coverage to help with discoloration. It’s the kind of make-up that enhances, but doesn’t cover up your natural beauty. It also provides that awesome dewy look, which is so perfect for summer. ($43.00 at Sephora)

Tarte Cheek Stain - This has lasted me so long the packaging doesn’t even exist anymore! So, yes, more expensive than drugstore brands as well, but totally worth it as it lasts FOREVER! This stuff gives your cheeks a little summer glow and keeps that same clean, fresh look I love in the summertime. ($30.00 at Tarte)

Neutrogena Healthy Skin Brightening Eye Perfector – This is a great concealer for summer, especially for those of us who have any puffiness or darkness under our eyes. It brightens and covers, but isn’t too heavy. A great product for a good price! ($13.99 at CVS)

Pro Airbrush Concealer Brush – I hate spending money on makeup brushes, and honestly, don’t do it very often. One of these days I’ll invest in them, but for now I choose a few that I know help out tremendously and stick with those. This concealer brush falls into that category. My undereye circles are probably my biggest problem area, and this brush has lasted me a few years, so it’s worth the investment in my opinion. ($24.00 at Sephora)

Maybelline Great Lash Waterproof Mascara - The greatest drugstore mascara of all time! I have more expensive mascaras, but I always come back to this one because of it’s staying power. I wear contact lenses and have pretty sensitive eyes, so I need something that won’t run down my face when my eyes water. This fits the bill perfectly! ($3.99 at CVS)

Eyelash Curler
– If you don’t have one, get one. Even if you can’t do anything else, if you can throw on some tinted moisturizer and curl your eyelashes, you’ll look ready to go, especially in the summer! ($13.99 at CVS)

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